Couch Confessions: How I Imagine Our First Time Together

32:00 First Time Together Aug 21, 2017 36 comments 1890 837

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This isn’t a ’sucky fucky’ audio, as I like to call them - no sucking or kissing or other sound effects. In this raw audio, I want you to imagine you and I are sitting on my couch after our amazing date. There’s real chemistry between us, and we know we like each other, and naturally the idea of taking things further crackles in the air…but I’m not sure.

I want you…I really want you…but I don’t like meaningless hookups. I want a connection…I want it to mean something…

…and so instead of rushing into physical intimacy, I describe what I imagine our first time together might be like…how I would like it to be…

Is this how you’d like it to be too?

the tags refer to things I talk about, not sound effects you’ll hear


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  • LeaDavenport1968 on 2017-09-17 11:55:51 (UTC)

    Simply perfect Eve, beautifully perfectly delivered too! In your own, unique style!

    • A Eve on 2017-09-18 14:04:32 (UTC)

      Aww, thank you! 💋

  • MadWithLust on 2017-09-08 14:49:32 (UTC)

    Yes! Yes! Yes!

    I don't think I could have sat there, twiddling my thumbs as you revealed all those feels! I totally would have snuggled up, gently caressing and nuzzling until I found the right moment to bring the fantasy to life!

    OMG! It would be so beautifully intimate! It just flowed so naturally! The only thing more perfect would be if I could have made it to the magic words! I was so close but when you turn your voice to super-sultry-sexy, I can't help but release! :P

    • A Eve on 2017-09-08 20:00:11 (UTC)

      aww...I don't mind at all MWL! 😘

  • Jeffsortairish on 2017-08-25 08:08:21 (UTC)

    This is a scene of great feeling, Eve. You bring a sense of sharing, and wanting to see what might be mutually right or not. Your voice feels close, heartfelt, with an eroticism imaginable then, or that the future might bring.

    Wayward as my imagining may be, it sounds like he has loved her, and she is keeping somewhat hidden whether she loves him. Or maybe she does, but isn't sure she feels it at this moment, and I'd respect that honesty.

    She poetically shares her deep desires, the kind of experience she wants. I'd imagine hesitating, my heart unsure about what is authentic to do, not knowing enough of what she's feeling beneath what she's sharing. Yet wishing to stay and listen. If I spent the night, I might ask for a blanket and volunteer to camp on the couch, when she heads to bed. Maybe even go snug her covers around her, if she wants :)

    In my life, I recall a time when someone said something, and I saw there might be an unbridgeable gap in what love means to each person. Yet who knows how life unfolds, when there's something real there. The best I know is open hearted talks, with each wanting to hear the other, and solitude times between, giving space for each to hear their own inner voice.

    If I found myself in an experience like this, I imagine there'd be more in me to share than fits into one couch talk. Such as illusions I see in what many call romance, what love means to me, how I see a meeting of two wholenesses as real (and one person completing another as pretending), heartache I'd been through (it sounds like her inviting him was a long time in coming), or limiting circumstances in my life.

    Well, those are some imaginings of how I'd respond. Maybe not the stuff of romance movies, but at least it'd be genuine to me :)

    As a postscript...
    "I would love it if you knew how much I want you to kiss me" I feel there are many kinds of kisses. Some mostly sexual. Some as friendly affection. Others akin to an "I love you". As with those special words, it isn't me to pretend at an unclear moment. I want it to be genuine, given when truly felt. I'd imagine my heart full of emotions in a first time together like this. Yet I still might hesitate to kiss her in this way, if she might see differently what it means. Perhaps our talkings would bring clarity. Were I to look in her eyes, and feel a peace that we see it in a similar way, the stars would feel aligned for me. I can only imagine wanting to kiss her, deeply and tenderly, as feelings flow between us.

    • A Eve on 2017-08-26 19:47:34 (UTC)

      Thank you so much for this, Jeff. I put a lot of myself into all my audios, but this one touched on something pretty deep in me, something that I'm actually incorporating into the novel I'm working on right now. It can be difficult to be a very sexual person when you also want to connect deeply with someone, when you want it to mean more than just a hookup or sex for it's own sake. I've encountered people, on GWA in particular, for whom sex seems to be just recreation (and that's fine, I'm not judging them for that), but it leaves me cold, thinking that I could so easily fall into a trap of thinking that there's something more profound there when there isn't. I wanted this audio to reflect those moments of hesitation, that hopefulness that maybe this person she's attracted to is into her the way she's into him.

      • Jeffsortairish on 2017-08-27 07:14:12 (UTC)

        Thanks for sharing, in the audio and your reply. Warm wishes as you try to weave those feelings into your novel in a way that feels authentic.

        I have seen it's possible for sexual sharing to be meaningful - in affection, pleasure, kindness, stress relief, healing - with someone where there's not the deepest compatibility, if there was honesty ahead and throughout, and if one felt an inner yes about it.

        But my ideal has always been a deep connection. I have sometimes endured a lot of ambiguity and heartache when seeing a possibility for this with someone. It likely would be hard to open sexually and what I feel in my heart (love and vulnerability) with her, without really knowing I was loved back, and that she felt at peace about it.

        Back in the days of dialup internet, I found this poem Home I: Making Love (1997) by Joy Yourcenar with a photo by Eric Boutilier-Brown, and remember being struck by its rugged yet beautiful honesty.

        • A Eve on 2017-08-28 21:34:22 (UTC)

          that's really beautiful, thank you for sharing that 💋

  • Georgio36 on 2017-08-22 13:23:03 (UTC) (edited)

    Eve this touched my soul. You ask is this how I would like your idea of our first time together to be? I would say YES! in such a astounding way while holding your soft hands. In fact this is more than how I would imagine my first time with any woman to be. As I'm a Virgin & I wouldn't want to rush things either. I probably would be to shy to bring up the subject of sex unless I have a deep emotional connection with the woman first or if she did first. I never was one for one night stands. So if it was you & I was at your place like this, I would totally understand how you would feel about how you like things to be. I like a woman who is forward/assertive with what she wants from me. It would be a great opportunity to tell the woman I'm a Virgin too so it would work out fine 😊. I wouldn't care as long as I could be with you period & just hold you. At least you want to talk about sex & I love your ideas of sex & would totally wait until you are ready to try everything. Thank you for this wonderful dialogue of Eraudica bliss. You definitely know how to make a man feel safe & comforted. Never stop being you ok 🌺

    • A Eve on 2017-08-22 22:04:03 (UTC)

      And you never stop being you. This is why I love doing what I do - I want to show people that we're all the same when it comes to wanting intimacy and connection, being a bit unsure about sex sometimes, and needing to trust. When you find the right person, she'll tick all those boxes for you and it'll feel like the most natural thing in the world ❤️

  • billymacorbuddy on 2017-08-22 11:34:15 (UTC)

    Before I listened, but after I read the description, I tried to imagine what such a scenario might be like. But the only thing I could envision was me, clumsily fumbling with a bra clasp. Those things always tripped me up. I swear they are the real chastity devices. But Eve, always thinking, took care of that before I could embarrass myself. Thanks Eve, you've allowed me to save face and saved a bra from being torn apart. Hm, the rending of garments, that would be an entirely different kind of audio.

    • CharlieRomeoLima on 2017-08-22 23:54:43 (UTC) (edited)

      There must be video tutorials somewhere online that show us how to unclasp a bra with but one hand...all smoothly suave-like. 😄

      UPDATE: And there is!

      • billymacorbuddy on 2017-08-23 16:33:18 (UTC)

        "Billy, why do you have bras on your pillows?"

        "Um. Neck support?"


        • A Eve on 2017-08-24 17:13:30 (UTC)

          haha :P

      • A Eve on 2017-08-23 15:49:12 (UTC)

        haha that's what I love about the interwebs - if you're wondering about it, someone's done a video on it...

    • A Eve on 2017-08-22 22:02:43 (UTC) certainly would be :P

    • Jeffsortairish on 2017-08-22 17:39:08 (UTC)

      Haha, I empathize Billy! Kissing her, desire growing, wahoo it feels right to let them free! Is it left or right that unhooks in and away? Is that when I reach around like this, or when I'm looking at her back?? Kissing her neck to try to not lose the moment. 10 seconds later still fumbling. Do I admit defeat and ask her to help me out? Okay, I'll ask and oh, just got it! Hands return to where they were. By this point, the same moment isn't there. It's like a dog that had the perfect sleeping position. He can't just return to what had come by turning around 3 times and lying down in just the right way. So maybe we can take comfort from Eve trying to write a "2" on her boobs, eh? She was still just as sexy after that :)

      • A Eve on 2017-08-22 22:02:27 (UTC)

        haha I love that analogy :P And thank you!

      • billymacorbuddy on 2017-08-22 20:47:34 (UTC)

        That's it! She can write the instructions to the bra on her boobs. Jeff, you're a genius!

        • A Eve on 2017-08-22 22:02:08 (UTC)

          hahaha you've seen my attempts at writing on my boobs! I can't handle a 2, there's no way I could write bra-removing instructions :P

        • Jeffsortairish on 2017-08-22 21:08:15 (UTC)

          I honestly hadn't even thought of the instructions possibility. Great idea! I'd only gotten as far as seeing that, well, she mixed up left/right in writing the number and was still sexy, so maybe we are, too, even when we get left/right mixed up in a bra unfastening :D

          • A Eve on 2017-08-22 22:01:30 (UTC)

            hahaha absolutely! That's why I show you guys bloopers and goofs and silliness - we're all still sexy no matter what happens. I would find bra fumbling endearing :P

            • stormmuse on 2017-08-23 00:45:34 (UTC)

              Eve, I see no issue with taking a few moments to undo your bra, even if I have to invent a bit of fumbling. It only gives me reason to be close enough to put my arms around, and continue kissing you.

              Always look for the upside, gentlemen!

              • A Eve on 2017-08-23 15:49:27 (UTC)

                Mmm....lovely thought indeed!

            • CharlieRomeoLima on 2017-08-22 23:58:52 (UTC)

              In the context of an intimate relationship, I really think I would appreciate moments of unbidden, silly goofiness to cut the tension in the air and get some cuddly, feel-good hormones flowing! 🤗

              • A Eve on 2017-08-23 15:49:53 (UTC)

                And you'll soon realize that much of the time sex is just damn funny, too :P

                • Jeffsortairish on 2017-08-23 18:38:24 (UTC)

                  I so agree. To adapt an Oscar Wilde quote - I doubt he would've minded - sex is too important to take seriously. Sharing humor in almost any part of life makes it more rich, I think. We get to see that facet of a person we care about alongside their other qualities we value :)

                  • A Eve on 2017-08-24 17:13:54 (UTC)

                    I absolutely agree! ❤️

  • stormmuse on 2017-08-22 01:14:13 (UTC) much this! This called to me on such a deep emotional level, that it easily was as erotic as more direct works, if not more so.

    It touched me more, as I desire that connection, which makes the culmination of desire so much more intense. I was drawn in and began to experience this in a very real sense, as it led to my mind creating the sights, sounds and sensations of this encounter.

    This reached into my mind and painted such a vivid image of the first time...your breath against my mouth, your lips and the taste of you as we kiss, slowly at first, then with increasing passion that ends in my claiming your mouth as mine. The feel of your skin under my fingers, your breasts and your nipples as they harden under my touch. The moment that you began to take what you want pulled a deep growl from within, as I feel your lust and hunger for my cock, as you moan around it and I twine my fingers in your hair to claim what I desire. The scent and taste of your desire, as I devour you, pulling your orgasm from you, so I can slake my lust and thirst in your essence. The heat of your sex, as I place myself at the very entrance of your core, and demand that you tell me what you want...I need to hear the desire in your voice, that little catch as you beg for me to take you. I feel you flutter around me, as I drive into you, then pause to enjoy the sensation of you wrapped around me...the little flutters as you adjust to me and I steady myself...the desire and lust in our eyes fueling each other. As we move together, I see your body writhe, sweat glistening, the flush of your approaching orgasm, my deep growl of animal passion, as you tell me to come inside you. The shared drive to ecstasy, as I tell you to look into my eyes...I want to see the fire in your soul as we attain heaven together. Those tender caresses, as we come back down to earth together, only to have the desire and anticipation begin to grow again, as we move to the bedroom to continue this encounter, until our bodies can't endure the pleasure anymore and sleep claims us, with you held in my arms, our exhausted bodies merged into one.

    Wow...I didn't realize how deep my mind had gone, until I hit preview. Perhaps, you can see what this did to me. I enjoyed the way that it pulled desire for closeness, lust and passion together into one cohesive experience.

    One day, I will find the woman that calls to me like this. Only then, will this vision become reality. Until then, Eve, you are an amazingly sexy, delectable woman, who will continue to wander into my dreams.

    Bravo, milady, bravo!

    • A Eve on 2017-08-22 22:00:09 (UTC)

      Comment trophy for you! 🏆 That was incredibly sexy and beautiful, thank you so much! 💋

    • CharlieRomeoLima on 2017-08-22 02:16:10 (UTC)

      Stormmuse, for this comment I salute you and I hope you know how brilliant a writer you are. Write love letters like this, and it won't be long until you charm the socks off the object of your desire, unless she's got a heart of granite. Eve, I recommend you award this man a comment trophy post-haste!

      • A Eve on 2017-08-22 22:00:40 (UTC)

        Absolutely, I bestowed upon him the coveted Comment Trophy without delay! :P

        • stormmuse on 2017-08-22 23:26:22 (UTC)

          Thank you, Eve, for the lovely trophy! And you are very welcome, milady!

 is nice to hear that, as that is one place I've had people criticize, which caused me to start writing clinically to avoid the comments. Exploring the world of erotic, as well as cuddly, audio appears to have nudged a part of my brain, that I'd written off.

          • A Eve on 2017-08-23 15:50:51 (UTC)

            I'm surprised to hear that people criticized you for that. Fuck 'em! There's eloquence for you! :P

          • netsroht on 2017-08-23 08:38:54 (UTC)

            Hold it in honor!

            Ever thought of writing erotic audio scripts? If yes, where can i found those? ;-)

            • A Eve on 2017-08-23 15:51:14 (UTC)

              Seconded - I'd record something he wrote, for sure